Few Years...Live.. or Leave

I always get this strange feeling that my life is short. Short enough not to reach to the old age of many broken teeths, stooping on cane stick and being dependent on anyone for the basics. At a age I am at present I don't count in young nor middle aged and not even old. It is a very strange phase of life when you feel like nowhere. Age seems to be taking on you and you realize that 12 working hours and beyond is making you really fatigued. You need rest after each 4 hours period and is loosing the capacity to digest any food. 

This mid or say nowhere times is also harder, as to every time you want to take a sabbatical from work and when you get a few days of rest in name of holidays..boredom starts to creep in. You want action in your life. The increasing waistline pushes you to do exercise and stay fit., but the day long fatigue says you need rest to give your body machinery a rest. Ohhhfff..a terrible time. 

Many times I want to take you something creative, something that will give peace to my soul and nourish my heart. But alas the mechanical world does not leave me. Neither does it let me go any further. Not to the nest step..nor to the resting cottage. 

I have lived my life pretty satisfactorily and rarely got any regrets. Had wishes and goals which I accomplished and kept moving ahead. But the years coming now..with no ambitions, goals for professional and personal life, I feel aimless. Tired for a new challenge., which keeps telling me..do I live like this..or should I leave this boring life and look for some excitement away from this land... still brooding.  

Joy in a cup of coffee

I never knew a cup of coffee at CCD can give me so much of happiness and a feel of accomplishment. Having coffee at Cafe' Coffee Day the other day was a total bliss. Well..this is not the first time that I am enjoying the rich taste of coffee at CCD. But yes, it is the first time I am having coffee and snacks in a place called Guntur. Yes..Guntur, a small city in divided Andhra Pradesh. Though Guntur has all the facilities for a city in terms of infrastructure, but when it comes to food there are very limited choices. Food in the morning and evening consists of tiffins (idli, vada, dosa) and afternoons you can get elaborate meals (consisting of enormous quantity of rice, pappu (dal), fry, curry, pacchadi (chutney), sambhar, rasam, papad and curd to end with). Items may change, but menu remains the same for all day. It may sound exiting to see soft fluffy idlies for some days, but for a person from north like me., need some change. We can't satiate our tastebuds without the mid hunger snacks of burger, pizza, samosa, sandwiches..etc etc.. the list is countless. After coming to Guntur, it felt that my choice of food got cropped to our favorite so called south Indian restaurents serving idli and dosas, of course much better at taste, quality and price. On my visit to places like Hyderabad & Bangalore, the first thing I would do is to head straight towards a McDonald's or Domino's and satiate my hunger for burgers & pizzas.. as if I did not has them for ages.

To my relief I came to know about the place in Guntur called Laxmipuram, a very upmarket area with many brands and some familiar restaurants like CCD, Dominos & KFC. To make my joy, double, triple and many fold, I announced it on facebook, whatsapp and all other media about the good news. Some got happy seeing me happy, some got confused, some surprised and some gave mixed reactions. People already belonging to Guntur were happy and amused to see the very locality of area which in no way resembled the original Guntur. All I knew I could survive in this place a little longer, as I found my cup of Joy.

Fast Paced Mahabharata

The fast paced life may lead you take on more on your platter than you can handle or chew, but is it taking you to the next level. The next level of accomplishment ..? Or is it only adding to the confusion to be created for no one to have a clear idea. Clarity on what needs to be done., and what is being done. We may all have our sixth senses alerting us., something is going on. Something which happens when there are two leagues, one the righteous one and the one opposing it. The reason for opposition is still not known. Like it was not known even to all the kings and friends fighting against pandavas. The battle was intense and tough. Chakraviyoh was formed and young Abhimanyu was killed by the seasoned and very experienced kings. Bhishma kept on watching the play., and abhimanyu died. Young and courageous Abhimanyu ..!!
Till the time on we keep on killing the spirits of young and talented Abhimanyu's with seasoned shakuni's. The Gandhari's still continues to have the blindfold on her eyes to ignore the follies of duryodhan and her beloved sons in pursue of her aspirations in them. In this the darkest hour of kalyug, we need not one but many Krishna's to act..Act with Justice and Act with Action.